First off, what does your taper schedule look like for your meds? Are you planning on going off them or are you planning on staying on them? If you are staying on them, how long are you going to stay on them?
Medicine is for CURING things, not dependency. Dependency comes from taking drugs regularly, not medicine, which is taken until you are cured. So, are these drugs for you or are they medicine?
A Psychiatrist is not a personal councilor. They are there to "treat" your "disease" with meds/drugs. I had one for a hot minute and left after 2 sessions. Get a grief councilor that is the same gender as you. If I could go back I would change that part.
I'll be even more direct here. If you can't handle the pain of correction in your life now, you will surely handle it later on, at the cost of your youth and energy. The likelihood of you falling back in with someone toxic is going to be quite high if you don't get cleaned up and sober. So, make a commitment you will see this "being alone" thing through until you get happy.
An old friend once told me (when we were young) that he felt he needed to be happy alone before he could be happy with someone. I agree with this assertion. If you rely on a relationship, or person, to be happy (or experience happiness through them in the fog of meds) then you've already set yourself up for failure.
Lastly, be accountable. If you can figure out what you did wrong in the last relationship (and that can simply be STAYING with someone toxic) then you're setting yourself up for success.
Accountably is also realizing that the answer is within you. By looking outside of yourself, you avoid the harsh inner truths. Go to church if you don't want to directly address these. Go to the desert if you do.
And by all means, avoid alternate medications until you get off the ones you are on.
Good luck. You'll need grit to get through this, but you will get through it eventually.
Medicine is for CURING things, not dependency. Dependency comes from taking drugs regularly, not medicine, which is taken until you are cured. So, are these drugs for you or are they medicine?
A Psychiatrist is not a personal councilor. They are there to "treat" your "disease" with meds/drugs. I had one for a hot minute and left after 2 sessions. Get a grief councilor that is the same gender as you. If I could go back I would change that part.
I'll be even more direct here. If you can't handle the pain of correction in your life now, you will surely handle it later on, at the cost of your youth and energy. The likelihood of you falling back in with someone toxic is going to be quite high if you don't get cleaned up and sober. So, make a commitment you will see this "being alone" thing through until you get happy.
An old friend once told me (when we were young) that he felt he needed to be happy alone before he could be happy with someone. I agree with this assertion. If you rely on a relationship, or person, to be happy (or experience happiness through them in the fog of meds) then you've already set yourself up for failure.
Lastly, be accountable. If you can figure out what you did wrong in the last relationship (and that can simply be STAYING with someone toxic) then you're setting yourself up for success.
Accountably is also realizing that the answer is within you. By looking outside of yourself, you avoid the harsh inner truths. Go to church if you don't want to directly address these. Go to the desert if you do.
And by all means, avoid alternate medications until you get off the ones you are on.
Good luck. You'll need grit to get through this, but you will get through it eventually.